In 2003 I was diagnosed a major depressive with an anxiety disorder. I had problems long before then, stemming from my childhood, but it had taken me that long to come to terms with it. Even then, I couldn’t deal. The meds made me feel funny and I stopped taking them. I kind of went into denial, thinking that the doctor didn’t know what he was talking about or was reading too deeply into things I had told him. Then, I couldn’t hide from it, anymore.
I had panic attacks while I was a Production Manager on a film and I started to worry. I got medicine for when I have the panic attacks, but not to prevent them. Since then, I’ve kind of tucked it all away, only to deal with it when I absolutely had to. I thought that was my only option. I didn’t want to take pills for the rest of my life.
I never found resources or stories of what depression was to other people. Just symptoms and medicines you can take or ask about. So, I decided to share (on this blog). So that other people know what it’s like for me. Maybe you’ll feel less like you’re the only one. Maybe you’ll find something here that will help you.
Either way, I hope it helps! 🙂